Envy, revisited.

Awhile ago, I posted about my barbie doll friend.

My friend is now pregnant and gaining weight. Not a lot of weight. Aside from the now obvious bulge in her midsection, no one else would notice that she's gaining weight. But as the best friend, I hear about it all the time. "I'm such a whale!" "I am eating everything in sight!" "My butt is so big!"

Uh, no honey. It isn't.

I realize that she's talking about herself relative to how she used to look. And by comparison, yes, she's gaining some weight. I know that she's not referring to me in any way. I know that she doesn't understand that her claim to being fat when she really isn't does not help my envy issues, since even at the apex of her pregnancy she'll still be lighter than I am now. Her self-centered pregnant mind has never stopped to think how any of this might make me, the truly fat one, feel.

I just try to shrug it off, and remind myself that it's about her and not about me. It still stings.